okay, for the winter shows at RAHS this year are "Suessical the Musical" and "Noises Off!". i'm in suessical, and i'm really excited because it my first main-stage show. i'm looking forward to tomorrow 'cause the cast list will be put up then. YAY! i'm so happy/excited that i can't type corrently, and i'm practically twiching in my chair. (okay, i will admit that that's a little weird, but that's just me being me!!) alright, calming down now...
okay, the one thing that sort of ticked me off last year about the theater program (yes, something actually made me mad about the program), was that there was only one main-stage show each trimester, and those who didn't make the cut for the shows were either in Childrens Theater, the One Acts, or not in any of the theater productions for that trimester. it made me mad!
this year they don't have Childrens Theater and it makes me sad. it was a fun program, even if i felt left out. but they still have the One Acts, which i haven't been in yet this year (just the summer/autumn)
anyways, theater is my happy place, and suessical will be AWESOME!!!!!!!!! ^_^
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Hopeless Romantic
i know that i've done several blogs about love and life and other things like that, but it's not all that i think about. you readers are probably thinking that "wow, this person is a hopeless romantic. she needs to get a life." you have the hopeless romantic part right. if you were thinking the other half of the quote, then, you're mean. i don't need to get a life, i already have one. so there!
okay, i will admit that i write about love a lot, but it doesn't mean that i'm love obsessed. it's okay for people to be hopeless romantics, and get sort of carried away every now and then. so don't you be criticizing my rants, you've probably done it some time in your life or will have a moment like mine some time in your life.
getting to the point now, the person who i really like has currently broken up with her girlfriend, and i really want to ask her out again. but here's the thing, i don't want to be to forward, and i've asked her out once before, went out for 4+ months, then she broke up with me because she liked someone else. i want her to be happy, even if it's without me as her lover. i just don't know what to do. i currently want someone who's more than a friend who i can lean on right now. there are a couple guys who i like, a couple girls who are straight, (darn it all), but i want my ex girlfriend the most. is that bad? is that to much to ask for? i do want her to be happy, but i also want her.
one thing that made me really mad last week was that one of my guy friends told me that my ex was going to breakup with her girlfriend on wednesday. he also said, after i mentioned that i might want to ask her out again, that she likes some guy at our school. i was sort of dumbfounded, but there you go. he then said that he was planning on asking her to prom and that he was going over to her house after school that day. (let's just say that he's had a lot of girlfriends, and has f*cked several of them both voluntarily, and against their will. (he told last year that he's been used, and has been a user)). so i got really jealous, and i snapped at him. "if you hurt her in any way, i will kill you." after that, we gave each other the silent treatment for most of the day.
see what love can do to people? it can make you protective, suspicious, crazy(er), lonesome, yearning, and list can go on and on. (sorry, that was just part of the bad list. there is a good list in which none of those feelings i've been feeling currently). (not all of that last sentence there was true just FYI). sorry guys for putting this awful burden on you, but i haven't talked with anyone about this, and i won't be able to talk with anyone that i want to about this until tomorrow. plus there are a couple friends of mine who have blogs who i would like to have read this and comment on, but i don't really feel like talking with them about it.
okay, i will admit that i write about love a lot, but it doesn't mean that i'm love obsessed. it's okay for people to be hopeless romantics, and get sort of carried away every now and then. so don't you be criticizing my rants, you've probably done it some time in your life or will have a moment like mine some time in your life.
getting to the point now, the person who i really like has currently broken up with her girlfriend, and i really want to ask her out again. but here's the thing, i don't want to be to forward, and i've asked her out once before, went out for 4+ months, then she broke up with me because she liked someone else. i want her to be happy, even if it's without me as her lover. i just don't know what to do. i currently want someone who's more than a friend who i can lean on right now. there are a couple guys who i like, a couple girls who are straight, (darn it all), but i want my ex girlfriend the most. is that bad? is that to much to ask for? i do want her to be happy, but i also want her.
one thing that made me really mad last week was that one of my guy friends told me that my ex was going to breakup with her girlfriend on wednesday. he also said, after i mentioned that i might want to ask her out again, that she likes some guy at our school. i was sort of dumbfounded, but there you go. he then said that he was planning on asking her to prom and that he was going over to her house after school that day. (let's just say that he's had a lot of girlfriends, and has f*cked several of them both voluntarily, and against their will. (he told last year that he's been used, and has been a user)). so i got really jealous, and i snapped at him. "if you hurt her in any way, i will kill you." after that, we gave each other the silent treatment for most of the day.
see what love can do to people? it can make you protective, suspicious, crazy(er), lonesome, yearning, and list can go on and on. (sorry, that was just part of the bad list. there is a good list in which none of those feelings i've been feeling currently). (not all of that last sentence there was true just FYI). sorry guys for putting this awful burden on you, but i haven't talked with anyone about this, and i won't be able to talk with anyone that i want to about this until tomorrow. plus there are a couple friends of mine who have blogs who i would like to have read this and comment on, but i don't really feel like talking with them about it.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
RAWR!
okay, so you know how some people will complaining about how their love life/life in general sucks and other stuff like that? if you don't like hearing/reading about that kind of thing, stop reading right about here.
anyways, (not meaning to be a drama queen or anything), there's been a lot of stuff lately that has been making me sad/depressed and anger me. for instance, i freaked out when my parents, (dad) told me that i couldn't be in Suessical the Musical if i didn't pull my grades up in at least 2 of my classes. (meaning that i'd need to get a B- or higher on my exams yesterday and today). so here i am, studying like a mad man, (no, i did not have a sex change recently), and i'm getting so stressed out. in fact, last friday, i had my 3rd break-down of the school year! "high expectations" according to my councilor, from both my parents (which i have 4 of), and myself. its been making me so stressed out that i've been misserable, i feel like shit, i feel really dumb, and it's no fun what so ever! for me, personally, i can't except anything lower that a C- on assignments and tests. well, i've been getting grades all over the A-F range. (mostly C's though). once i walked out of biology almost crying because i got a D- on a test. (i wasn't doing well in the class, i was having a rough day, and it was the day after my dad told me "no good grades, no suessical".) one thing was for sure, i didn't want to go home that day. (don't worry, i did. eventually).
my love life, hasn't been all that great. the girl who i really like is in a relationship in which she doesn't want to be in, but is having a hard time with breaking up with her. today, according to one of my friends, she likes some guy at our school. i don't want to force myself upon her after she's just had a break-up, and i deffinalty don't want her to be in a position where she's dating one person, but is in love with another. (i've been through that, and it sucked. besides, the guy that i liked at the time probably didn't have the same feelings for me anyways.) so i really don't know what to do. oh, and to top it all off, the guy who told me that the girl who i like has a crush on a guy at our school also told that he's going to ask her to prom, that i should ask her out, and that he's going to her house after school today. i was so jelous! (he's also sort of a perv, and has sex a lot). i told him "if you do anything to hurt her, i will personally kill you." i'm still boiling with rage!
he actually gave me a note later that day saying that i was wrongly accusing him and that he would hurt bher, but i don't know what to believe or think anymore. my head hurts a lot, i want someone other than a friend, family mem, or a teacher to comfort me anymore. i want someone more than a friend to love me. not meaning to sound needy, but that's what's been going through my head. (at least one of many things). all that i want is someone to love. is that too much to ask for?
anyways, (not meaning to be a drama queen or anything), there's been a lot of stuff lately that has been making me sad/depressed and anger me. for instance, i freaked out when my parents, (dad) told me that i couldn't be in Suessical the Musical if i didn't pull my grades up in at least 2 of my classes. (meaning that i'd need to get a B- or higher on my exams yesterday and today). so here i am, studying like a mad man, (no, i did not have a sex change recently), and i'm getting so stressed out. in fact, last friday, i had my 3rd break-down of the school year! "high expectations" according to my councilor, from both my parents (which i have 4 of), and myself. its been making me so stressed out that i've been misserable, i feel like shit, i feel really dumb, and it's no fun what so ever! for me, personally, i can't except anything lower that a C- on assignments and tests. well, i've been getting grades all over the A-F range. (mostly C's though). once i walked out of biology almost crying because i got a D- on a test. (i wasn't doing well in the class, i was having a rough day, and it was the day after my dad told me "no good grades, no suessical".) one thing was for sure, i didn't want to go home that day. (don't worry, i did. eventually).
my love life, hasn't been all that great. the girl who i really like is in a relationship in which she doesn't want to be in, but is having a hard time with breaking up with her. today, according to one of my friends, she likes some guy at our school. i don't want to force myself upon her after she's just had a break-up, and i deffinalty don't want her to be in a position where she's dating one person, but is in love with another. (i've been through that, and it sucked. besides, the guy that i liked at the time probably didn't have the same feelings for me anyways.) so i really don't know what to do. oh, and to top it all off, the guy who told me that the girl who i like has a crush on a guy at our school also told that he's going to ask her to prom, that i should ask her out, and that he's going to her house after school today. i was so jelous! (he's also sort of a perv, and has sex a lot). i told him "if you do anything to hurt her, i will personally kill you." i'm still boiling with rage!
he actually gave me a note later that day saying that i was wrongly accusing him and that he would hurt bher, but i don't know what to believe or think anymore. my head hurts a lot, i want someone other than a friend, family mem, or a teacher to comfort me anymore. i want someone more than a friend to love me. not meaning to sound needy, but that's what's been going through my head. (at least one of many things). all that i want is someone to love. is that too much to ask for?
Monday, November 3, 2008
Sadies (Again?)
OMG, i finally picked a guy to ask to Sadies, and there's now i wish that i had asked a different guy. how stupid is that? besides, the guy who i asked said that he might go, but it depends on if he's busy or not that day, (which is understandable), but he also said that it depends if someone else asks him. all that i have to say to that now is: huh? i mean, is there some other girl who he's hoping will ask him to Sadies, or what? i mean, aren't i good enough for him? good lord.
do you think that its just me, or is it the guy? i don't know. *smacks head against wall* do you people think that i need an MRI or something? (am i asking to many questions?) (here i go asking yet another question). i'm not trying to sound whinny or anything, but i've already had one mix-up with a guy and a dance. it was a miss-communication on both of our part. i hope that it won't happen again, but still, one should have some kind of expectation for a relationship. (right?)
perhaps i fall in love too easily, but a girl should allow her emotions to run wild about guys (or girls) every now and then. if we couldn't, well, that would be interesting. imagine a world where neither girls nor guys telling others about their love life or about who they have crushes on. one thing's for sure, girls would be a whole lot quieter if that were to happen. (not like guys add their noise to the jumble). but seriously though, imagine girls not saying "oh my god, ____ is so hot!" or "i wonder if he will ask me out." etc. just think about it. the world, love obsessive-less (if that's a word), it would certainly be a much quieter one.
do you think that its just me, or is it the guy? i don't know. *smacks head against wall* do you people think that i need an MRI or something? (am i asking to many questions?) (here i go asking yet another question). i'm not trying to sound whinny or anything, but i've already had one mix-up with a guy and a dance. it was a miss-communication on both of our part. i hope that it won't happen again, but still, one should have some kind of expectation for a relationship. (right?)
perhaps i fall in love too easily, but a girl should allow her emotions to run wild about guys (or girls) every now and then. if we couldn't, well, that would be interesting. imagine a world where neither girls nor guys telling others about their love life or about who they have crushes on. one thing's for sure, girls would be a whole lot quieter if that were to happen. (not like guys add their noise to the jumble). but seriously though, imagine girls not saying "oh my god, ____ is so hot!" or "i wonder if he will ask me out." etc. just think about it. the world, love obsessive-less (if that's a word), it would certainly be a much quieter one.
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