RAWR!

okay, so you know how some people will complaining about how their love life/life in general sucks and other stuff like that? if you don't like hearing/reading about that kind of thing, stop reading right about here.

anyways, (not meaning to be a drama queen or anything), there's been a lot of stuff lately that has been making me sad/depressed and anger me. for instance, i freaked out when my parents, (dad) told me that i couldn't be in Suessical the Musical if i didn't pull my grades up in at least 2 of my classes. (meaning that i'd need to get a B- or higher on my exams yesterday and today). so here i am, studying like a mad man, (no, i did not have a sex change recently), and i'm getting so stressed out. in fact, last friday, i had my 3rd break-down of the school year! "high expectations" according to my councilor, from both my parents (which i have 4 of), and myself. its been making me so stressed out that i've been misserable, i feel like shit, i feel really dumb, and it's no fun what so ever! for me, personally, i can't except anything lower that a C- on assignments and tests. well, i've been getting grades all over the A-F range. (mostly C's though). once i walked out of biology almost crying because i got a D- on a test. (i wasn't doing well in the class, i was having a rough day, and it was the day after my dad told me "no good grades, no suessical".) one thing was for sure, i didn't want to go home that day. (don't worry, i did. eventually).
my love life, hasn't been all that great. the girl who i really like is in a relationship in which she doesn't want to be in, but is having a hard time with breaking up with her. today, according to one of my friends, she likes some guy at our school. i don't want to force myself upon her after she's just had a break-up, and i deffinalty don't want her to be in a position where she's dating one person, but is in love with another. (i've been through that, and it sucked. besides, the guy that i liked at the time probably didn't have the same feelings for me anyways.) so i really don't know what to do. oh, and to top it all off, the guy who told me that the girl who i like has a crush on a guy at our school also told that he's going to ask her to prom, that i should ask her out, and that he's going to her house after school today. i was so jelous! (he's also sort of a perv, and has sex a lot). i told him "if you do anything to hurt her, i will personally kill you." i'm still boiling with rage!
he actually gave me a note later that day saying that i was wrongly accusing him and that he would hurt bher, but i don't know what to believe or think anymore. my head hurts a lot, i want someone other than a friend, family mem, or a teacher to comfort me anymore. i want someone more than a friend to love me. not meaning to sound needy, but that's what's been going through my head. (at least one of many things). all that i want is someone to love. is that too much to ask for?